I am not having a good day today. I woke up at 6:40am, when I was suppose to wake at 5:00am. I was almost late for anthropology and I slept in said class. I do not know what I am doing anymore. I have so many thoughts in my head that I do not know where to start. It's just a big mumble jumble. I have to talk to the financial aid office tomorrow at 10am or else I am going to be behind in my financial aid and I do not want a repeat of what happen last July. I am upset at my father, who hasn't come back home to my mother. I do not hate him, I forgive to quickly to be truly mad. But he knows that he has lost my respect for him--which was little. It makes me sad that I am like this with my father, because everyone I know--here--are amicable with their fathers and I am jealous when they talk about them and when I see them visit their daughters...
I just have been feeling very pessimistic and I do not know what to do in life.
I want to join the kendo club, to help reduce my stress and I really do! But I do not want to join alone...but then I think that I should grow up and go to the damn club! It meets on Mondays and Wednesday from 6pm to I forgot when..hahaha....I am going to e-mail the club, if I could still join...because I want to know kendo. In high school I thought that when I am in college I would join archery and kendo...I haven't heard nor seen anything about archery so I am going to that kendo club...but not today....I'll e-mail the person first........
I do not want to go to my Calculus lecture that starts in thirty minutes....I like the teacher but not the people....it's like anthropology......and like anthropology there is that same guy! Last quarter he was in both my anthropology lecture and discussion and now he is in my Calculus lecture and discussion....Wait I'll be back Sho-chan just IM me... Yesterday in the discussion for Anthropology, my phone went off and it was Sho-chan...I was angry at first but I got over it since it was my fault for not putting it on silent which I usually do but I didn't yesterday...Sho-chan always helps me get up from my lows, but he responds so slow~ that I get irritated...
I have started writing stories and frankly they suck...I would let Sho-chan edit it but I don't think he would like reading my writings....
I like being old fashion by sending letters....recently I sent my brother a birthday card because his birthday is this Friday! He is going to be....something years old! It's sad that I do not know my brother's age but to me age doesn't matter it's just another year being alive.
Back to what I was saying earlier about Sho-chan. He still hasn't responded back!...*sigh* I do not know what to do with him....I would have talk with Josei but she is too uptight....and serious...I just needed someone to listen and yeah~
maybe I should post something that I recently watched....
I have this class called "Film Studies" and every Monday we watch films--old, new, international--any kind. So last Monday we watched Maedchen in Uniform 1951 version. We were supposed to watch the 1931 version but the library did not have it--they "misplaced" it. Anyways the film is about a girl named Manuela and she falls in love with her teacher. That's it. hahaha. not really but I do not want to go into details. My mind is too full of stuff that I should probably be doing now...like going to class....which I am going to right now...
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